Sadness will last forever.
I was scared. Heartbreaks after you're finally recovering.
To be honest, I am mad, mostly myself.
Because I let him, I allowed myself to dream, to love. I knew it was going to be one sided.
This hurts. It's gonna hurt a while, again, to bury all the dreams and illusions you dare to have.
I should give him an award, he pretended so good.
Is it me? Do I Attract these type of men?
Immature? Fearing of commitment?
I want to stop. In my defense, I was so clear from the beginning. I should have been more transparent towards myself. I should have been braver, but he was good. He got inside of me and I let him.
But today, today I start to find a way out. Because I could be dying of love, but I don't want to and I won't stay where I am not wanted.
He already said his peace, he already said what he said. What am I doing?
I know who I am. I am a loyal and excellent woman. He should be proud to stand by my side and eager to see me.
It's my time to fall out. It's sad that what I saw he didn't. That's what hurts most, the not correspondance and rejection.
It's getting harder each time, to start a new healing process. I could say I won't try again, maybe I could, but now I know better. This is so heartbreaking, not being the woman he wants.
I won't stick around to see how he gives what I wanted for myself, to someone else. I am not masochist.
He didn't even love me. Why do I feel so stupid? I am not stupid, I just need to understand more.
Go back to soothing myself.
Is this why he wanted to be in my life? Is this why He did what he did? Jerk.
But I don't want to be a victim. I let my guard down. Let's ask ourselves what I learned. I know it hurts to know the truth and face reality.
I guess I have to focus on myself again.
Yo quisiera que esto hubiera sido una relación exitosa, de crecimiento continuo, de apoyo, de sonrisas y acompañamientos. No lo fue.
Dèjame ir, a alguien que me ame, a alguien que también quiera construir conmigo.
Te agradezco todos los momentos, los felices y los tristes, los de diversión y de aprendizaje, las nuevas experiencias y re descubrimiento, pero ya no me hagas más daño.
Tienes toda la razón, para qué voy a luchar yo sola? No voy a estar, de nuevo, donde no me quieren. Yo solo quiero estar donde quieran que yo esté y tú no quieres mi presencia.
Que me costó y aún me cuesta sanar mi corazoncito, ahora tendré que sanar esta nueva herida.
