I was happy with simple things.. little details.. and I didn't know.
What a damn and ironic life.
If we only knew what the other was really doing.. was really thinking..was really willing to give... we would think twice, again, before saying no.
I am just so stupid, thinking, craving. That just ain't for me after all. I am just good for one thing heh, and I bet that's what most men want or like. More than X times... oh c'mon.
Maybe I should just focus on me, in my things, my friends, and give up already. This isn't for me, I am not good at it.
I am so sad it can't be hidden. Maybe I should take my medication again.. one more.
I want impossibles.
I want to stop.
Who I was trying to fool? Myself, because I really thought, I just did! I thought I could, this could be different. But now I know.
It isn't new, we all know how it will end.
We are not dragons.. and certainly not seahorses. We are humans.
My conclusion is that I was wrong, That I was and I am stupid.
My IQ in emotions and for human interaction suck. I want my chickens.
Now lot of things will die unsaid, will die with me, with my heart. I put my hand on my chest, and it doesn't stop, I want it to stop. How words hurt, just like a dagger through your heart.
You know, you won, you knew you would all along. Now I am scared.. of another rejection.
I surrender. My body, my mind, my heart and me won't stand another war or battle. I was way too weak, but I was daring; I thought I could fulfill it. I know I won't come back alive. I was stabbed on the back before (you were right, I didn't fight, but that was why..). But, oh, how I die so pleasant. How I embrace the carrier. I didn't even scream. what for?
It is my fault, I am so silly, how could I believe?!
I want to hug a dolphin, and cry, and my tears would go with the sea, and I could pass all the love I could ever feel to it in one hug.
Aquí se quedó mi vida.
And again.. Soy la fiera herida....
Aún camino por los mismos caminos, pero sola, aún más sola.
Hoy podría morir por dentro... de nuevo.
No tengo valor.
What a damn and ironic life.
If we only knew what the other was really doing.. was really thinking..was really willing to give... we would think twice, again, before saying no.
I am just so stupid, thinking, craving. That just ain't for me after all. I am just good for one thing heh, and I bet that's what most men want or like. More than X times... oh c'mon.
Maybe I should just focus on me, in my things, my friends, and give up already. This isn't for me, I am not good at it.
I am so sad it can't be hidden. Maybe I should take my medication again.. one more.
I want impossibles.
I want to stop.
Who I was trying to fool? Myself, because I really thought, I just did! I thought I could, this could be different. But now I know.
It isn't new, we all know how it will end.
We are not dragons.. and certainly not seahorses. We are humans.
My conclusion is that I was wrong, That I was and I am stupid.
My IQ in emotions and for human interaction suck. I want my chickens.
Now lot of things will die unsaid, will die with me, with my heart. I put my hand on my chest, and it doesn't stop, I want it to stop. How words hurt, just like a dagger through your heart.
You know, you won, you knew you would all along. Now I am scared.. of another rejection.
I surrender. My body, my mind, my heart and me won't stand another war or battle. I was way too weak, but I was daring; I thought I could fulfill it. I know I won't come back alive. I was stabbed on the back before (you were right, I didn't fight, but that was why..). But, oh, how I die so pleasant. How I embrace the carrier. I didn't even scream. what for?
It is my fault, I am so silly, how could I believe?!
I want to hug a dolphin, and cry, and my tears would go with the sea, and I could pass all the love I could ever feel to it in one hug.
Aquí se quedó mi vida.
And again.. Soy la fiera herida....
Aún camino por los mismos caminos, pero sola, aún más sola.
Hoy podría morir por dentro... de nuevo.
No tengo valor.
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