She told me. But I didn't listen. Now I think I should have listened. I've always been so stubborn and daring. Wanting to challenge everything and everyone, and sometimes it's just out my control; how I hate that! I know it's YOUR way of showing me you know better than me. That I just say what I want, but you know what's good for me.
So, I want to know, if this is good for me, keep me here, but if not, please end it.
I don't think there's much courage left in this world..
I feel sad, to realize, to see, how our paths are growing partways.
And I feel, I am too old for this. I am too old for teen love, for puppy love, to play cyber boyfriend/girlfriend game again, for not having; I am not a teenager anymore. I am a grown up woman... Im 25 yrs old, how time goes by. I am aware of a lot now that I wasn't back then.
I always think when I was a kid, I'd be so different, or have different things, some of them.
I want certain things, I want some guarantees. Sometimes I wonder why, is it me? I am not that far riskable lovable? I'm just loveable as the girlfriend or the lover?
I had so much to face and I ignored it, just like right now I have and I will have so much to face that I just ignore.
But then, there's no one to blame. It's not my fault, it's not his fault, it's not your fault, it just happened. Things happen, and I just let it happen and let it go. I am sad because I wanted such another outcome, I wanted so much, I gave so much, thats why my heart was so broken. I really don't know how, or when I overcame it. I didn't drink, I didn't overworked, I just cried when I felt I had to, and sometimes I didn't want to cry but can the tears be stopped, really? I had them when I was in class, or in the car, or in the street. Now it's easier, I don't go to school and I don't go out as much.
Qué ironía, again. This will suck, cus I will just wonder.
Y aunque me entregue mi amor,....
So, I want to know, if this is good for me, keep me here, but if not, please end it.
I don't think there's much courage left in this world..
I feel sad, to realize, to see, how our paths are growing partways.
And I feel, I am too old for this. I am too old for teen love, for puppy love, to play cyber boyfriend/girlfriend game again, for not having; I am not a teenager anymore. I am a grown up woman... Im 25 yrs old, how time goes by. I am aware of a lot now that I wasn't back then.
I always think when I was a kid, I'd be so different, or have different things, some of them.
I want certain things, I want some guarantees. Sometimes I wonder why, is it me? I am not that far riskable lovable? I'm just loveable as the girlfriend or the lover?
I had so much to face and I ignored it, just like right now I have and I will have so much to face that I just ignore.
But then, there's no one to blame. It's not my fault, it's not his fault, it's not your fault, it just happened. Things happen, and I just let it happen and let it go. I am sad because I wanted such another outcome, I wanted so much, I gave so much, thats why my heart was so broken. I really don't know how, or when I overcame it. I didn't drink, I didn't overworked, I just cried when I felt I had to, and sometimes I didn't want to cry but can the tears be stopped, really? I had them when I was in class, or in the car, or in the street. Now it's easier, I don't go to school and I don't go out as much.
Qué ironía, again. This will suck, cus I will just wonder.
Y aunque me entregue mi amor,....
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